A few weeks back I received an email asking if I could come in very last minute to fill in as speaker for a boudoir photographer who was recovering from surgery and wouldn’t be able to make it. The 2.5 hour class was for the Pro Photo Expo and Conference for the Professional Photographers of California organization. My immediate thought was to say YES! But, it took some shuffling of my schedule first. So, about 4 days before the event, I was able, in fact, to say yes.
Then came the real work! Lots of preparation goes into teaching a class like this, so I focused in on this for the next few days. But, the fear and self doubt kept creeping in…again! I just can’t shake it! But, what I realized this time around is that’s ok! It’s ok to care that much about what I am teaching and to care that my message is actually coming through enough to make an impact on my attendees lives and businesses. At this point, I can’t imagine not caring enough to induce some fear. I accept it.
When it came time to get up there and teach, I was of course still a bit nervous, but looking into the eyes of my attendees almost instantly erased my nerves as I could see they were receiving my message! And, while some may have been disappointed to see their boudoir hero had been replaced, they were so courteous and attentive to hearing a different point of view, and I am incredibly grateful. It means the World to someone on a stage baring their very soul for all to see (along with their trade secrets), to have that nonverbal or even verbal communication between the audience. Otherwise, it would just feel you were just up there talking to yourself. Ha!
To everyone who sat in my class with an open heart, with kind eyes, with verbal questions and to the guy who raised his hand at the end to say, “I don’t have a question but I just want to thank you for this class”, I thank YOU! My heart swelled with joy because of you all.
And, I would especially like to thank the attendees who reached out to me afterwards. I wasn’t kidding when I said I wanted to bring you all home with me! I love keeping in touch with you all!
Here are a couple of things they had to say…
“Sat in on your presentation this morning and it was amazing!!!” ~Sara Therese
“I am so inspired by your talk this morning!” ~Stuart Townsely (that’s him talking to me in the photo above!)
“I was uplifted and inspired by you at the Photo Expo in Pasadena. Thanks for reminding me to believe in me! You were sooooo courageous to share your mistakes! I appreciate your transparency. Thank you!” ~John F Jefferson
Thank you for that guys! Feedback like this helps push me forward. That last one was especially touching to me. Transparency in our industry is rapidly being replaced by “smoke & mirrors” sadly, so to know that someone saw my honesty and appreciated it was such a relief to me!
A special thanks goes out to the folks at Pro Photo Expo and Conference for taking a chance on me so very last minute! I loved every second of it and was incredibly impressed with your organization. You made it easy for me to be there! Thank you for that! You all rocked!
We ended the week with a nights stay at the Viceroy Santa Monica to celebrate! Wow, what a great hotel that was.
Looking forward to the next speaking engagement now!
When was the last time you faced your fears?
Me and Mazzy at the Viceroy