I have spent much of this pandemic contemplating the meaning of life and looking for ways of adding joy into my daily existence. While having temporarily lost my sense of purpose through my work, I needed to discover other ways of adding meaning that boost my sense of identity. I made my connections with others a primary focus, where possible with the lockdown. We had to be inventive! But, I created rules for myself, as the quarantine relaxed, that I would only leave the house for necessities or matters of the heart, while being mindful to my physical and mental well-being.
One of the risks I have decided to take is by signing up for a dance class. Being so alone through all of this, has left me with a genuine need to be around others, especially while all striving towards the same goal. I was desperately missing dance in my life, something that always brought me so much JOY! But, I didn’t want to go back to partnered dance, like salsa because of the pandemic. So I chose something that naturally forces social distancing because it involves poles that are at least 6 feet apart! This particular dance class teaches us a routine that we get to “perform”. The performance is really just is dressing according to a theme and going through the whole thing together. There’s no audience or anything. But, that’s exactly what I needed! And, the best part os it honors my erotic and feminine sides, since it’s a very sexy pole dancing class called Stiletto at Deja Vu Crash Academy.
I went into this with an absolute beginner’s mind. I was unafraid of looking like a total fool, which I think is a necessity when going into a class where you’re supposed to eventually look sexy. Nobody looks especially sexy while learning, unless you consider the bravery involved in potentially looking like an idiot. Just know that in advance and have fun with the learning process! I felt like a toddler in tumbling class and laughed at the whole “I Love Lucy” nature of it. Grateful I have the ability to laugh at myself. It made it all the more fun!
But, in the end, on class 5, I think I did pretty good! I definitely need to work off this Quarantine-15 extra fluff I have going on and build more strength and endurance, but I think this class will help with that. I look forward to hopefully continuing for quite some time!
What do you think? Did I do okay? Eeks!
What are you doing to challenge yourself through these trying times?